Does this describe you?...

Psalm 109:22 - For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me.

That described me and unfortunately it describes the majority of the people walking the earth today. We are a needy bunch and our hearts are wounded from various things that went on in our past. For me I have just recently found out that a lot of things going on inside of my spirit is a result of a bitter spirit I had toward my mother. It was there all of my life, I just didn't or I should say refused to recognize it. Looking back I knew it was there, I just stuffed it away somewhere in the recesses of my spirit. I can also say "had" against my mother because I have completely forgiven her. For others it may not have been an abusive or neglectful parent, it could have been any number of things, from a sibling, a school teacher, a spouse, a friend, a boss, many things can leave us bitter and resentful. Some people are angry at God. Angry because of their "lot" in life. They're angry at things God let happen, etc. They won't admit it, but it's true. Instead of denying we need to confront the thing that is causing us the problem. If it is God you are angry at, tell Him. He can take it, He knows it anyway. First we have to admit we have a problem. I compare it to the alcoholic or drug addict that denies they even have a problem. That was me, I always knew something wasn't quite right, but never would come to terms with it.The next thing, and it is the biggest thing, is forgiveness. You HAVE to forgive, regardless of the wrong done to you. You have to make the choice to forgive just as Christ has forgiven you. It is not a feeling, it is a decision you make. My mother passed away 10 yrs ago, so I couldn't go to her personally and forgive her. Instead, I bought flowers and took them to her grave, and there I made peace with my mother. It was really odd to me because while my mother was living angd going thru cancer I grieved for her. I cried over her illness and her suffering. After she passed away, it was as if I had no emotion. I never understood it. I didn't cry at her funeral, never visited her grave. It was all very strange. Now that the Lord has opened my eyes to some things that was previously hidden to me, it all makes perfect sense. Your heart is a deceitful place the Bible says. No one can understand their own heart, much less be able to judge someone else's heart.Are you the needy person the above verse speaks about? Are you looking to any number of things to fill that need? Christ alone can heal your broken heart. That wound that is on your heart for whatever reason, let Jesus heal you from the inside out. It will take a deep look inside your soul. Ask God to reveal to you anyone you may be bitter toward, and and make the choice to forgive that person. Get rid of the bitterness and resentment and find a new freedom you didn't know was possible.

Recommended reading - "Total Forgiveness" by R.T. Kendall. Also a book by Dr. Larry Crab titled "Inside Out."